I wrote a bio but I don't want extra stuff to scroll so I'll put it here instead.
BIO:
I like horror, fantasy and parodies. I've been using the site for years before becoming a member. I did 4 month worth of activity in a day and didn't even added all the animes that I watched. Animes taught me english, I owe Sailor moon and Dragon Ball for that. But now that I have acess to more than long commercial animes, I prefer the weirdest mind blowing stuff. Mushishi and Hell girl are very unique to me. I like to have my mind ripped open. Psycho-Pass, Elfen lied, Future diary, From the new world... they're bloody good animes for that. I don't like typical animes, ecchis mechas in school... (But Code Geass was awesome.) If I was in high school, I wouldn't want to watch animes about more school once I'd finally be out. I love animes because Brodway influence cartoons too much and I hate when they break into song. I prefer when limbs break, and anime are less sensored than most cartoons. Most romantic comedies make me feel lonely, I need a show that will make me think "Whoa, my life isn't so bad after all"... and they have to be very dark for that. They're a positive outlet for my negativity.
Animes are glorious because it's art... that moves... and speaks. Art that is alive. It's so beautiful, like nature, like life itself... sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's full of wonders... and sometimes it's brutally bloody. I don't want to limit my heart to only one shade of emotion, but I won't let others hurt it pointlessly either. Some friends are so fake that the characters in anime end up more genuine. What makes me smile is never a waste of time. But it'd be nice to share my smile with someone who won't just try to take it away for themselves, but who'd give me a reason to smile as well. I'm grateful to anime creators for that.
I like the anime Psycho-pass so much... because it showed how insane it is to be obsessed with sanity in our society... Treating the victim as badly as the perpetrator... because they both lived the same horror and are both tainted... I know how it feels... it only make people worse... because it worsen their situation... and people can only react to that... cause and effect...
I can only relate to the insane people...
When I played FF7 and saw Sephiroth revolt... being a hero and protector, but discovering that he was an experiment and abused... it was such a big revelation to me... I thought "what? We don't have to please the people who hurt us hoping to deserve mercy? We can just kill our enemies?" It took me years but eventually I made peace with the darkness in myself... I was so terrified of that monster... but then I ended up realizing that this wolf was the only thing in the world that wanted to protect me... and with unconditional love... I'm done sacrificing my well being for others. I'm so happy since I focus on taking care of my own health, my needs are finally met! Whether I deserve it or not, I can take care of myself anyway. So far walking away was always more than enough to get rid of people who are abusive, but murder is always an option.
In the anime Chrono Crusade, the brother of the main character was always sick and bed ridden... He couldn't go play with the other children and they didn't stay with him... They only came to abuse his healing powers. When they scratched their knees it seemed insignificant, but they didn't want to deal with that... The brother kept wondering why he could heal others but not himself... The answer was that he was taking the pain inside himself, and it added up... He was slowly dying from a death by a thousand needles... as they all abused his kindness and sucked his life force dry, not even giving him friendship and some companionship in return. He revolted. Stole the horns of a demon, becoming one, to be able to draw energy from the world and ran away from everyone he knew. I sure can relate to that.
I love the anime Future Diary. Yuno seems bat shit insane but she's the only one who knows what's going on. And after how she was treated by the people supposed to show her what love and support looks like, I can't blame her for expressing her love in wicked ways... that's all she ever knew.
People are so concerned with clawing their needs from others that the idea to share it back doesn't even cross their mind... because it's easier to pretend doing than sincerely doing it... They are scared... so they inflict their worst fear on others... But I don't think I'm able to trust anymore. I have no logical reason to.
I guess that all I can do is enjoy myself. If someone enjoys along, fine, if they enjoy hurting me for their own benefit, I can get rid of them like the garbage that they are. But I don't think I can deal with more disappointment. I already had more grief than I can deal with.
Thankfully there are anime and videogames to give me an outlet to vent my anger.
If someone has anime full of madness to suggest for me, I'll appreciate it. But don't expect me to be sane. It'd be boring anyway. As long as I refrain from hurting others, don't complain that I'm creepy. I intend to laugh as maniacally as I damn want!
Yay my first comment, and I was lurking pretty hard. How did you find me O_o
SITE FEEDBACK:
I want the option to hide the characters that I hate. I don't want to see their ugly faces. Some of them can trigger really bad memories.
For some reason, the grammar correction doesn't happen in this text box. You'll suffer the mess of my ignorant french canadian-ness.
I wonder what the eye button does... *pokes eye* Mwahaha. A preview. But without grammar correction I still don't know what I'm doing. And I'm too lazy to copy it in Word. Meh, I wouldn't be able to screw up my text as badly as people using chat shortcuts, even if I had a gun pointed at my head.
Pushing enter skips 2 lines? Weird. And annoying.
Enjoy your stay on my wall~ Is there a mod forced to real all the stupid stuff that people write in their private place too? *gasps* Must be hard, but that's what you get for spying.
PS: I can only relate to bat shit crazy characters for some reason.
EDITED: We don't have an edit button? (I can't find it) only a delete (copy and paste to redo)? That's lazy. It's going to be harder to be OCD with my replies. I guess A-P doesn't expect people to try to correct their mistakes. I share your loss of faith in humanity.
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I wrote a bio but I don't want extra stuff to scroll so I'll put it here instead.
BIO:
I like horror, fantasy and parodies. I've been using the site for years before becoming a member. I did 4 month worth of activity in a day and didn't even added all the animes that I watched. Animes taught me english, I owe Sailor moon and Dragon Ball for that. But now that I have acess to more than long commercial animes, I prefer the weirdest mind blowing stuff. Mushishi and Hell girl are very unique to me. I like to have my mind ripped open. Psycho-Pass, Elfen lied, Future diary, From the new world... they're bloody good animes for that. I don't like typical animes, ecchis mechas in school... (But Code Geass was awesome.) If I was in high school, I wouldn't want to watch animes about more school once I'd finally be out. I love animes because Brodway influence cartoons too much and I hate when they break into song. I prefer when limbs break, and anime are less sensored than most cartoons. Most romantic comedies make me feel lonely, I need a show that will make me think "Whoa, my life isn't so bad after all"... and they have to be very dark for that. They're a positive outlet for my negativity.
Animes are glorious because it's art... that moves... and speaks. Art that is alive. It's so beautiful, like nature, like life itself... sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's full of wonders... and sometimes it's brutally bloody. I don't want to limit my heart to only one shade of emotion, but I won't let others hurt it pointlessly either. Some friends are so fake that the characters in anime end up more genuine. What makes me smile is never a waste of time. But it'd be nice to share my smile with someone who won't just try to take it away for themselves, but who'd give me a reason to smile as well. I'm grateful to anime creators for that.
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY:
Embracing madness was the only way that I could stay sane.
Unless you beat your videogames without dying even once, you'd die if it was real.
SOME INTRO FOR RANDOM PEOPLE:
I like the anime Psycho-pass so much... because it showed how insane it is to be obsessed with sanity in our society... Treating the victim as badly as the perpetrator... because they both lived the same horror and are both tainted... I know how it feels... it only make people worse... because it worsen their situation... and people can only react to that... cause and effect...
I can only relate to the insane people...
When I played FF7 and saw Sephiroth revolt... being a hero and protector, but discovering that he was an experiment and abused... it was such a big revelation to me... I thought "what? We don't have to please the people who hurt us hoping to deserve mercy? We can just kill our enemies?" It took me years but eventually I made peace with the darkness in myself... I was so terrified of that monster... but then I ended up realizing that this wolf was the only thing in the world that wanted to protect me... and with unconditional love... I'm done sacrificing my well being for others. I'm so happy since I focus on taking care of my own health, my needs are finally met! Whether I deserve it or not, I can take care of myself anyway. So far walking away was always more than enough to get rid of people who are abusive, but murder is always an option.
In the anime Chrono Crusade, the brother of the main character was always sick and bed ridden... He couldn't go play with the other children and they didn't stay with him... They only came to abuse his healing powers. When they scratched their knees it seemed insignificant, but they didn't want to deal with that... The brother kept wondering why he could heal others but not himself... The answer was that he was taking the pain inside himself, and it added up... He was slowly dying from a death by a thousand needles... as they all abused his kindness and sucked his life force dry, not even giving him friendship and some companionship in return. He revolted. Stole the horns of a demon, becoming one, to be able to draw energy from the world and ran away from everyone he knew. I sure can relate to that.
I love the anime Future Diary. Yuno seems bat shit insane but she's the only one who knows what's going on. And after how she was treated by the people supposed to show her what love and support looks like, I can't blame her for expressing her love in wicked ways... that's all she ever knew.
People are so concerned with clawing their needs from others that the idea to share it back doesn't even cross their mind... because it's easier to pretend doing than sincerely doing it... They are scared... so they inflict their worst fear on others... But I don't think I'm able to trust anymore. I have no logical reason to.
I guess that all I can do is enjoy myself. If someone enjoys along, fine, if they enjoy hurting me for their own benefit, I can get rid of them like the garbage that they are. But I don't think I can deal with more disappointment. I already had more grief than I can deal with.
Thankfully there are anime and videogames to give me an outlet to vent my anger.
If someone has anime full of madness to suggest for me, I'll appreciate it. But don't expect me to be sane. It'd be boring anyway. As long as I refrain from hurting others, don't complain that I'm creepy. I intend to laugh as maniacally as I damn want!
Mwahaha!
Yay my first comment, and I was lurking pretty hard. How did you find me O_o
SITE FEEDBACK:
I want the option to hide the characters that I hate. I don't want to see their ugly faces. Some of them can trigger really bad memories.
For some reason, the grammar correction doesn't happen in this text box. You'll suffer the mess of my ignorant french canadian-ness.
I wonder what the eye button does... *pokes eye* Mwahaha. A preview. But without grammar correction I still don't know what I'm doing. And I'm too lazy to copy it in Word. Meh, I wouldn't be able to screw up my text as badly as people using chat shortcuts, even if I had a gun pointed at my head.
Pushing enter skips 2 lines? Weird. And annoying.
Enjoy your stay on my wall~ Is there a mod forced to real all the stupid stuff that people write in their private place too? *gasps* Must be hard, but that's what you get for spying.
PS: I can only relate to bat shit crazy characters for some reason.
EDITED: We don't have an edit button? (I can't find it) only a delete (copy and paste to redo)? That's lazy. It's going to be harder to be OCD with my replies. I guess A-P doesn't expect people to try to correct their mistakes. I share your loss of faith in humanity.