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  • The dark side of Helghan
  • Joined Jan 20, 2016
  • 23 / ?

About Me

I love video games, plain and simple. I consider myself a hardcore gamer, even if I don't usually play on the hardest difficulty or necessarily go for the Rip Your Soul Out hard games. I have been playing video games since I was barely able to spell properly, beginning with the Nintendo 64 (so I'm told), although my earliest video game memory is Spyro the Dragon on the PSOne. Ever since then I have been a diehard fan of Sony and their PlayStation family. I have owned every console in the PlayStation lineup since the PSOne, and still do to this day. Some of my favorite games came from the PSOne and PS2 era such as Spyro, Tekken, Mortal Kombat, Metal Gear Solid, Spider-Man 2, Need for Speed and ICO. Some of my fondest gaming memories are of excitedly plugging in my DualShock 2 controller and racing my friends around sun-soaked vistas or duking it out with my older brother (I let him win, of course). 


However, not everything is so grand and dandy. In 2005, my dad passed away. I sank into a deep depression, blaming myself for his death. I became introverted, reclusive. I hated myself and I hated God for taking away my father. In 2007, I was to receive another blow in my life; the suicide of my best friend. My depression worsened, and I turned to drug abuse to drown my pain over the years. When that stopped working, I turned to self-harm, and began cutting. The high helped for a while, but the pain returned. Then I attempted suicide. I failed, obviously, It was after this that my friends made me realize that I needed help, badly. So, I signed up for a support group and gradually healed.

 Losing my best friend was a terrible thing, and I'm still in the throes of pain to this day. But amidst the struggle and tears, there is a lesson to be found for us all. Whether male or female, we all suffer pain and hurt at some point in our lives. The best cure for this isn't medicine or doctors. It's the friends who will stand by you no matter what. The ones who will look past the stupidity of your choices and go "hey, we know you're hurting and won't judge you. We're here to help!"

 I'm still struggling with depression to this day. It isn't something you easily get over, but the experiences in my past have shaped me into the person I am today. Not a day goes by that I don't regret some of those decisions, though.

 One thing that helped me through it, though, is my love for anime and Japanese pop culture. I discovered anime at a young age with Naruto and Zatch Bell. I was awestruck by this strange and wonderful thing, and was immediately drawn in. I would run around the house singing Japanese songs, though I didn't understand a word! It helped me grow artistically as well, as I loved to draw my favorite anime characters. I was shunned at school by people, though, who didn't understand what it was, and thought it was weird. But, I quickly made friends with one girl in middle school, who would eventually become one of my closest companions, and eventual love interest: Krystal. 

 We met at the local rec center. She was surrounded by other kids at the fence who were attempting to climb over it to gain access to the storm drain. She immediately stood out due to her choice of clothing compared to the others. Where they preferred outdoors-type clothing, she wore a hoodie, black jeans, and beanie. I was attracted immediately. I introduced myself and we hit it off immediately. We left the boys to hang out together, and discussed anime. I also discovered that she had a love for gaming as well. We've been best friends ever since.

 My life has taken many twists and turns over the years, many bad, many good. One thing that has remained constant is my love for gaming as a medium, hobby, and way of life. Nothing will ever change that. I am a proud gamer, and part of the PlayStation Nation til the day I die!


Favorite Anime



Hyperdimension Neptunia: The Animation

Akame ga Kill!

Deadman Wonderland


Plastic Nee-san


Oreimo 2





Tokyo Ghoul

Wooser's Hand-to-Mouth Life

Vampire Knight

Chrono Crusade

JoJo's Bizarre Adventure


Samurai Warriors

Space Pirate Captain Harlock

Cowboy Bebop


Death Note


Love Live! School Idol Project


Cardcaptor Sakura

Yuki Yuna is a Hero!


Mobile Suit Gundam


Fate/kaleid liner PRISMA ILLYA

Fate/stay night

Sakura Trick

Yuru Yuri

Hayate the Combat Butler!

Hunter X Hunter

Kill la Kill!

My Little Monster

School Rumble

Madoka Magica


The Idol Master

The Irregular at Magic High School


Spice and Wolf

High School of the Dead

Zatch Bell!

Yona of the Dawn

Inferno Cop

Darker than Black

Black Butler

Kuroko's Basketball

Favorite Video Games

Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

Samurai Warriors 4

Batman: Arkham Asylum

Batman: Arkham City

Assassin's Creed

Assassin's Creed II

Assassin's Creed III

Assassin's Creed IV: Black Flag

Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood

Call of Duty: Black Ops

Killzone 2

Killzone 3

Ninja Gaiden Black

Ninja Gaiden 3

Hyperdimension Neptunia Victory

Final Fantasy V

Final Fantasy X

Final Fantasy X-2

Final Fantasy XII

Final Fantasy XIII

Final Fantasy XIII-2

Final Fantasy Tactics

Dissidia 012 [duodecim]: Final Fantasy

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim

The Last of Us

Sly Cooper and the Thievius Raccoonus

Metal Gear Solid

Metal Gear Solid 2

Metal Gear Solid 3

Metal Gear Solid 4

Metal Gear Rising

Mortal Kombat


Tekken 2

Tekken 3

Tekken 5

Tekken 6

Tekken Tag Tournament 2

Dead Space

Dead Space 2

Dead Space 3

Blade Kitten

Diablo III


Borderlands 2





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Life on anime

  • 11 Minutes
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  • 3 Days
  • 1 Weeks
  • 4 Months
  • 4 Years

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Sianeka Feb 5, 2016

Hello!! I hope you have been enjoying your time on a-p!!  ^_^

casandra29 Jan 22, 2016

Hi, Welcome to A-P! I hope that you enjoy the site! We seem to have similar taste in anime. Do you also read manga sometimes? I also enjoy playing games as well, I have a embarressing obsession with the Lego games given how old I am, I own every single one. Though I tend to be more into older RPG games like the Shin Megami Tensei ones (not persona 4 though), Jade Empire, Xenosaga ect. I also play a lot of games on my Ipad like Summoners War and Zenonia S. If you have any questions about the site or if you would like to chat with me sometime about anime, manga, or games stop by my profile, I'd enjoy hearing from you! This site has a lot of interesting stuff to do and check out, so have some fun with it! I hope you have a great day! ^_^

Iriiechan Jan 20, 2016

hello there! welcome to A-P! hope you enjoy it here! ^w^

by the way, I love your profile! and I'm happy to know you're a hxh fan XD