Thrawn
POPEE BELIEVER
WRML:
Today was my first day as a sophomore in college. I love all of my classes. I feel like they'll all be a great experience. Not to mention I go to school on an absolutely fantastic campus with basically anything a person might need on it, in a great city.
But I still commute 1 hour each way, sometimes an hour in a half if I have to work afterwords, on a bus. Switching busses every half hour. Waiting for busses. At plazas full of crackheads. I have no licence and can't drive. I have no time to learn or get a licence. Studying on the bus is hardly an option because I will have mostly computer work. I have a laptop but the busses have no wifi. You wouldn't imagine how hard it is to get any work done in 30 minutes on a bus when you have to switch busses and there's no wifi. And don't try to tell me to do homework when I'm standing around on a sidewalk waiting for busses. I have a phone with 4G that has a connection the whole ride- but that phone as I said in a profile post is so slow doctors diagnosed it with chronic retardation. And it's tiny. I couldn't do homework on it if I wanted to. The only thing I can use it for in a reasonable amount of time is YouTube and Spotify.
I did the math and I'll be spending an average of 15 hours per week on a bus. 20 hours at college. 15 hours per week minimum studying, assuming ill study at all on the bus. 56 minimum sleeping. 16 at work. 10 for extra time because you never know how long things will take.
I have 33 hours maximum of time per week to spend on anime, 19 if I don't get enough homework done on the bus. and only 9 if my assistant manager doesnt stop giving me over the hours im available for, goddammit. Because even if I have that time, that schedule will not permit me a social life. I'll go yet another year with no real life friends.
I've looked up a lot of stuff to help me out:
Oh. Yeah that's probably why last year I only barely got by with my grades. And I didn't even have to work back then.
I've already taken the max amount of student aid out just for tuition since that scholarship only covers so much, so I have no way to live on campus. Even if I save every penny of the money I make from my job, and also keep my grades up, I still won't be able to afford room and board next year.
This has brought me to the realization that I will most likely be in a terrible place in life for the next 3 years, unfortunately. And I have no escape from it. My college years will be the worst years of my life and there is no alternative future.
WMMD: Had a Mello Yello.
If you have Netflix, download it on your phone and download some episodes or movies on your home's (Or School) wifi to watch at the bus stop. Use the school's because fuck them. And maybe the crackheads would go "Oh shit son that Galavant shit is the real shit son, Timothy Omundson is my fucking G son fuck man that is some hard shit". And if you can still get full-refund on your courses, are there any available as online courses? Or can you swap out some liberal arts courses for online variants?
*Liberal arts being courses not related in the slightest to your degree, don't know if it's a requirement for your program or not.
And if anything, you will always have a place here. We will be your friends.