I've been blowing through Shugo Chara recently. In case you're unfamiliar with it, which most people are, I'll summarize the plot. Amu wakes up one morning with 3 eggs in her bed. She is understandably panicked and runs around trying to figure out why this wasn't covered in health class. A few other kids know what's going on and they explain that the eggs hold guardian characters- versions of the you that you want to be. Amu can't draw anything even though she really wants to, so one of her characters can draw. Tadase is really shy, so his character is bold.
Now, while this is a children's show, it has something that intrigues me. The guardian characters represent underdeveloped aspects in the children, and there's a huge amount of faith in dreams being possible. I want to believe that my dreams are possible, and frankly, it would be nice to have a small version of my potential hovering along, reminding me that I can do more than I think.
So I've stopped to ponder this: what would my character look like and what would she represent? It's odd trying to find my deepest desire, my truest dream... and then to make it take form. Honestly, I wonder if I even know myself well enough to summarize my dream in one sentence, but since freeing myself from the smothering plan of my childhood, I haven't known precisely what to do.
I am stuck in the phase where, having emerged from the cave, I am blinded by the seering light. It was painful at first, but now, the pain has dulled and I can make out outlines. Vague shapes, colors. I wonder how long it will be until I see clearly, or if I ever will. Of course Plato and Shugo Chara are a very strange mix, but well, that's how my brain works. I could analyze the show in terms of the Allegory of the Cave, but I might not. We'll see how motivated I feel tomorrow.